If you read my blog on a regular basis you would know that my 18th birthday was on Saturday. It is now 4 days later and I have yet to receive a single birthday card from ANYONE! Scratch that, I got one birthday card from my Dad's mom, one from my Dad, and one from my Mom. However, I have yet to get a single birthday wish from my other grandparents, my 2 aunt's on my mom's side and my 3 aunt's on my dad's side. That's 6 people that forgot my birthday. I've always been very touchy about my birthday because usually what happens is people hand me a gift (always appreciated) and try to pass it off as a Birthday/Christmas present. Listen, I understand money is always tight around the holidays and you might not be able to afford 2 gifts for me. But this is not about the gifts. I'm not that materialistic..honestly. This is about acknowledging that the BIRTH OF CHRIST and MY BIRTHDAY are not the same. I'm flattered that you'd like to lump my birthday into such an amazing holiday such as Christmas, but they're not the same in case you didn't know. How about for your birthday..whenever it is..I give you a hug and say.."HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Oh where's your present...don't you remember..I gave it to you on Christmas!" You'd probably be pretty dang pissed! Ya maybe now you know how I feel. Now usually my family doesn't have this issue. NORMALLY they are very good about differentiating between the 2. But apparently this year, the year that marks my 18 years of existence, they decided to forget! With my family usually I get all my birthday cards/presents on the same day we do our Christmas gift exchanges. But here I am empty handed. What the freak family! Oh wait..just now I checked my mail and I got a birthday card..with nothing in it..but it's the thought that counts I suppose. Gah..I'm trying to be a good sport about this, but honestly people..I'm poor, $15 would've been greatly appreciated for something like my 18th Birthday!
Sheesh ok I've vented. Now you can leave a lovely little comment and tell me if I'm overreacting or not.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sleep Deprived
Lately I have been getting like no sleep. I stay up till about 2 or 3 every night, wake up and work my life away, then do it all over again. I've been more tired than usual, but not completely exhausted...untill now. Shelby is leaving for a week..what am I going to do without her. So we decided to hang out, but she had to work so I went with her. We were originally going to hang out at 9, which isn't that early. But then she informed me she'd be picking me up around 7. And I like the genius I am, stayed up till 3 in the morning. It was worth it, I would've rather been hanging out till 3 rather than sleeping, but now its catching up with me. I'm so tired right now I can barely keep my eyes open. I need to catch a second wind or drink some mt. dew or something. Especially because today is New Years Eve and I honestly don't even know if I'll be able to make it to midnight. I might have time for a nap today..if I don't shower. So my options are sleep or go to Chey's smelling like dirty truckers. Haha. Funny stuff right thur. Ok I'm getting off so Shelby and I can go cause some trouble. WHOOP
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
50 Bloggy Recap
So yesturday I posted my 50th blog..finally. And i was going to do this for the 50th but I felt what I actually posted was more important. So I'm going to do the recap today instead. I don't wanna bore anyone to bad by talking about things that I've already talked about so instead I'm going to see if I can sum up each blog in just one sentence. Tricky. Ok here we go on our trip down memory lane..weeee............
1. My post about how sucky DI was but all the amazing friends I found there.
2. The video I made for my Lindsey's birthday and how much I miss her.
3. My outlook on life..very uplifting, I forgot about his post.
4. This was my "be more Christ-like post" that I'm still working on..yikes.
5. The story of telling me co-workers I'm mormon and being so dang proud of it..still am btw :)
6. I posted this while we were hanging out at mitch's..Shelby and I always blogged at his house for some odd reason.
7. Post about getting tipped..that never happens anymore..dang it.
8. I was reallly upset this night because someone who was supposed to be my "best friend" wasn't talking to me even though he promised he would.
9. OHHH this was one of my boy slump posts..haha if you read this and then read my post from last night it all kind of clicks.
10. The night we had Halloween on Christmas..that was fun.
11. I was so frustrated with my stupid boss for trying to justify working on Sundays..he still tries to justify it btw.
12. America's Next Top Model post..whish people are still trying to talk me into doing..and I'm still considering.
13. Where my nickname of "fresh and easy" came from and the post confirming Shelby's fatness..haha just kidding Shelby.
14. Pictures of our amazing soccer field cake for Shelby's nephew.
15. Another boy slump post, I wasn't trying to be whiny I sweat.
16. The realization I had that if I was patient the perfect guy would come to me (sometimes I can be so smart ^_^)
17. A list of goals that I actually accomplished..GO ME!
18. The night Shelby and I went to the temple when it was closed!
19. The night I made out with a guy and thought something would come of it..pshh I was stupid.
20. Missing Lindsey again.
21. The conversation where my idiot ex told me to be a stripper so I could make more money.
22. My prediction of the Twilight movie and Shelby's blog commercial.
23. Some tidbits of amazing advice my best friends give me..thanks guys :)
24. The blog I posted to the naive people who use the phrase "Just have faith" when it's not necessary..and trust me, it's not always necessary.
25. The fun night we had with Blair and Matthew.
26. My post about Kiwi, which I've been craving again!
27. The horrible song Addicted by Saving Abel..so good..unless you get the unedited version..YIKES!
28. An extremely long post about many things, mainly the lady cussing me out at work..ya that still happens..a lot!
29. Kids ruin everything..this still applies.
30. This is the post about how boring my life is.
31. This post has lots and lots of pictures of random things.
32. Mac and Cheese is disgusting and Pasta-Roni is still 485729345 times better...I had it today for lunch :)
33. The night I thought I was going to get kidnapped but got brownie points for doing something nice.
34. HAHAHA the night I got pissed at Chey for ditching me...and the first post he read I guess..bummer lol.
35. The next day when I woke up still mad at him..oops.
36. The retaliation story to Blair for kicking me out of his house.
37. My puzzle mania that I ended up never finishing because the cats kept knocking the peices off the table.
38. The night I had off work and sat around doing absolutely nothing.
39. My class schedule.
40. The blog I wrote to my "blog stalker" who got caught!
41. Work sucks.
42. The night I broke my rule...but let me tell you people..it was SOOOOO worth it :)
43. The night I couldn't figure out why I'm here and what exactly I stand for. (I figured it out btw)
44. My many problems that were all solved within hours!
45. The night my family got in a huge fight..it happens.
46. This post was about how lucky I am that I found the church again before I really messed up my life.
47. Movie night..and the first time I actually wrote Chey's name in my blog.
48. My birthday that was so amazing and the first one in a long time that I wasn't upset at all.
49. My soundtrack life..the songs I gave to different people and why.
50. My realization to the boy slump!!!!
1. My post about how sucky DI was but all the amazing friends I found there.
2. The video I made for my Lindsey's birthday and how much I miss her.
3. My outlook on life..very uplifting, I forgot about his post.
4. This was my "be more Christ-like post" that I'm still working on..yikes.
5. The story of telling me co-workers I'm mormon and being so dang proud of it..still am btw :)
6. I posted this while we were hanging out at mitch's..Shelby and I always blogged at his house for some odd reason.
7. Post about getting tipped..that never happens anymore..dang it.
8. I was reallly upset this night because someone who was supposed to be my "best friend" wasn't talking to me even though he promised he would.
9. OHHH this was one of my boy slump posts..haha if you read this and then read my post from last night it all kind of clicks.
10. The night we had Halloween on Christmas..that was fun.
11. I was so frustrated with my stupid boss for trying to justify working on Sundays..he still tries to justify it btw.
12. America's Next Top Model post..whish people are still trying to talk me into doing..and I'm still considering.
13. Where my nickname of "fresh and easy" came from and the post confirming Shelby's fatness..haha just kidding Shelby.
14. Pictures of our amazing soccer field cake for Shelby's nephew.
15. Another boy slump post, I wasn't trying to be whiny I sweat.
16. The realization I had that if I was patient the perfect guy would come to me (sometimes I can be so smart ^_^)
17. A list of goals that I actually accomplished..GO ME!
18. The night Shelby and I went to the temple when it was closed!
19. The night I made out with a guy and thought something would come of it..pshh I was stupid.
20. Missing Lindsey again.
21. The conversation where my idiot ex told me to be a stripper so I could make more money.
22. My prediction of the Twilight movie and Shelby's blog commercial.
23. Some tidbits of amazing advice my best friends give me..thanks guys :)
24. The blog I posted to the naive people who use the phrase "Just have faith" when it's not necessary..and trust me, it's not always necessary.
25. The fun night we had with Blair and Matthew.
26. My post about Kiwi, which I've been craving again!
27. The horrible song Addicted by Saving Abel..so good..unless you get the unedited version..YIKES!
28. An extremely long post about many things, mainly the lady cussing me out at work..ya that still happens..a lot!
29. Kids ruin everything..this still applies.
30. This is the post about how boring my life is.
31. This post has lots and lots of pictures of random things.
32. Mac and Cheese is disgusting and Pasta-Roni is still 485729345 times better...I had it today for lunch :)
33. The night I thought I was going to get kidnapped but got brownie points for doing something nice.
34. HAHAHA the night I got pissed at Chey for ditching me...and the first post he read I guess..bummer lol.
35. The next day when I woke up still mad at him..oops.
36. The retaliation story to Blair for kicking me out of his house.
37. My puzzle mania that I ended up never finishing because the cats kept knocking the peices off the table.
38. The night I had off work and sat around doing absolutely nothing.
39. My class schedule.
40. The blog I wrote to my "blog stalker" who got caught!
41. Work sucks.
42. The night I broke my rule...but let me tell you people..it was SOOOOO worth it :)
43. The night I couldn't figure out why I'm here and what exactly I stand for. (I figured it out btw)
44. My many problems that were all solved within hours!
45. The night my family got in a huge fight..it happens.
46. This post was about how lucky I am that I found the church again before I really messed up my life.
47. Movie night..and the first time I actually wrote Chey's name in my blog.
48. My birthday that was so amazing and the first one in a long time that I wasn't upset at all.
49. My soundtrack life..the songs I gave to different people and why.
50. My realization to the boy slump!!!!
Good Things Come To Those Who Wait
So here's a little background about me
2 years ago I met a guy. The instant I saw him I thought, "Look at this weirdo, I would never date him." 3 months later we were dating and I fell for him. I fell for him hard. I was convinced that he would be the one I would marry. I was so incredibly happy!..Untill we broke up. I was crushed, absolutely heart broken, but I didn't give up. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that he was and always would be the one and that he was just a teenager and to immature to realize that. So I kept the faith I had in us for 2 years. I was everything he needed me to be. I was a friend, a girl friend, I even went so low as to be a hook up. I lowered all my expectations so if he even acknowledged me I would be giddy for weeks. I was happy when he payed attention and devasted if he didn't. We were on and off but I always stuck around. I was a mess. And I never let myself move on. I told myself there would never be anyone better and eventually believed that. He would tell me to move on though, and wanting to please him (or make him jealous) I would try. I had a few flings, but they were never enough. So I started hooking up with guys just to "have fun". All it did was make me feel awful though. I wanted someone to love me for me, and I wanted to love someone. So I gave up on the guy. But I still didn't move on. Even though I was through with him no one seemed good enough. My friends told me I was being too picky and if I kept being so picky I would end up alone. I just couldn't let myself believe that though. I knew that I would find someone that was everything I wanted. Even if I didn't find my "soul mate" I knew I'd find someone that I wouldn't have to lower my standards for. Those 2 years were long. I hated being alone, but I dealt with it so that I could wait for someone who was..well..worth waiting for. And I think it's happened. I've finally met someone that's everything I want and more. Everytime I talk to him he says something that makes me realize what a perfect fit he is. I'm not saying I'm in love or I'm going to end up with him forever, but I know I met him for a reason, and I feel so lucky. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I just hope that I can be for him what he is for me. I hope I can be everything he wants and make him happy. This whole thing really does just prove to me that good things do come to those who wait. :)
2 years ago I met a guy. The instant I saw him I thought, "Look at this weirdo, I would never date him." 3 months later we were dating and I fell for him. I fell for him hard. I was convinced that he would be the one I would marry. I was so incredibly happy!..Untill we broke up. I was crushed, absolutely heart broken, but I didn't give up. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that he was and always would be the one and that he was just a teenager and to immature to realize that. So I kept the faith I had in us for 2 years. I was everything he needed me to be. I was a friend, a girl friend, I even went so low as to be a hook up. I lowered all my expectations so if he even acknowledged me I would be giddy for weeks. I was happy when he payed attention and devasted if he didn't. We were on and off but I always stuck around. I was a mess. And I never let myself move on. I told myself there would never be anyone better and eventually believed that. He would tell me to move on though, and wanting to please him (or make him jealous) I would try. I had a few flings, but they were never enough. So I started hooking up with guys just to "have fun". All it did was make me feel awful though. I wanted someone to love me for me, and I wanted to love someone. So I gave up on the guy. But I still didn't move on. Even though I was through with him no one seemed good enough. My friends told me I was being too picky and if I kept being so picky I would end up alone. I just couldn't let myself believe that though. I knew that I would find someone that was everything I wanted. Even if I didn't find my "soul mate" I knew I'd find someone that I wouldn't have to lower my standards for. Those 2 years were long. I hated being alone, but I dealt with it so that I could wait for someone who was..well..worth waiting for. And I think it's happened. I've finally met someone that's everything I want and more. Everytime I talk to him he says something that makes me realize what a perfect fit he is. I'm not saying I'm in love or I'm going to end up with him forever, but I know I met him for a reason, and I feel so lucky. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I just hope that I can be for him what he is for me. I hope I can be everything he wants and make him happy. This whole thing really does just prove to me that good things do come to those who wait. :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
My Soundtrack Life
If you really truly know me then you would know that music is a must in my life. I'm constantly looking for new music to listen to and dowloading like a mad woman. A few days ago I got my new Ipod that can hold a life time supply of music and a thing for my car so I can listen to all my favorite stuff anywhere. Well while I was in the car tonight I was listening to some songs that are really pulling me in lately. Then I realized that life does have a soundtrack (at least mine does). I'm constantly running songs through my head through out the day. Usually, in fact almost always, the songs that become my favorites are because of the lyrics. I'm a lyric kind of person. I listen to the meaning of the song, and that's what I like. So while my soundtrack was playing I started to realize that the people in my life all have songs that play in my head when I think about them. That's why I have decided to let you all in on your song. I don't mean to offend anyone by doing this, if you don't like your song then I'm sorry, but it's my life and I'll give you whatever song I think suits you. And if you didn't catch the hint before, your song is assigned to you because of lyrics.
Shelby: Man! I Feel Like A Woman Shania Twain
Shelby is seriously one of my rolemodels. She's so strong and independent in everything she does. She does things because they make her happy, but at the same time she's so concious of everyone else's needs. She always up for a good time and she's not afraid to speak her mind. She stands up for what she believes in even if it means telling someone off. And she has confidence to boot. She's probly reading that last sentence shaking her head, but seriously Shelby, you can do things I can't even dream of doing.
Lindsey: True Friend Hannah Montana
K seriously I'm sure you're all making fun of me for putting up a song by a disney star, but if you listen to the lyrics in this song it's seriously just like our friendship. She's been there even when everyone else left. Yes I admit that for a time I wasn't the best friend I could be, but instead of abandoning me in my time of need she helped me pull through. I can laugh and cry and be a complete idiot in front of her and she'd still be there no matter what. She's the kind of friend that would risk anything for me. Thanks Linds :)
Chey: Crush David Archuleta
This has been your song for a while now actually. I have no idea why, but it reminds me of you completely. I feel so lucky to have met someone like you. And even though I don't think you believe me I really do think you're an amazing guy.
All my ex's: Gives You Hell The All-American Rejects
This is the best ex song I've heard in a long time. I think that almost everyone feels this way. Even if your the best of friends with an ex, deep deep down everyone wants to feel like like they're ex still wants them even a little bit. And even though most of the time they do end up finding someone better than you, no one wants to think that. Because honestly, none of my ex's will find anyone like me and I hope when they see me they realize that and it gives them hell.
My Theme Song: Defying Gravity Wicked Soundtrack
Yes I even gave myself a theme song. This is an amazing song. If you've never really seen the play you might not get the beginning, but the end is amazing no matter what. My favorite line is "AND NOBODY IN ALL OF OZ, NO WIZARD THAT THERE IS OR WAS, IS EVER GONNA BRING ME DOWN!" Basically I'd like to think of this is my motto. I've spent a lot of time lately evaluating myself and what I stand for. For a long time I let people push me around and treat me like a nothing, but I've learned from that. And nobody in all the WORLD, no one that I know now or that I'll meet down the road, is ever gonna bring me down. I'm strong, I'm here, and I won't step down for anything.
Shelby: Man! I Feel Like A Woman Shania Twain
Shelby is seriously one of my rolemodels. She's so strong and independent in everything she does. She does things because they make her happy, but at the same time she's so concious of everyone else's needs. She always up for a good time and she's not afraid to speak her mind. She stands up for what she believes in even if it means telling someone off. And she has confidence to boot. She's probly reading that last sentence shaking her head, but seriously Shelby, you can do things I can't even dream of doing.
Lindsey: True Friend Hannah Montana
K seriously I'm sure you're all making fun of me for putting up a song by a disney star, but if you listen to the lyrics in this song it's seriously just like our friendship. She's been there even when everyone else left. Yes I admit that for a time I wasn't the best friend I could be, but instead of abandoning me in my time of need she helped me pull through. I can laugh and cry and be a complete idiot in front of her and she'd still be there no matter what. She's the kind of friend that would risk anything for me. Thanks Linds :)
Chey: Crush David Archuleta
This has been your song for a while now actually. I have no idea why, but it reminds me of you completely. I feel so lucky to have met someone like you. And even though I don't think you believe me I really do think you're an amazing guy.
All my ex's: Gives You Hell The All-American Rejects
This is the best ex song I've heard in a long time. I think that almost everyone feels this way. Even if your the best of friends with an ex, deep deep down everyone wants to feel like like they're ex still wants them even a little bit. And even though most of the time they do end up finding someone better than you, no one wants to think that. Because honestly, none of my ex's will find anyone like me and I hope when they see me they realize that and it gives them hell.
My Theme Song: Defying Gravity Wicked Soundtrack
Yes I even gave myself a theme song. This is an amazing song. If you've never really seen the play you might not get the beginning, but the end is amazing no matter what. My favorite line is "AND NOBODY IN ALL OF OZ, NO WIZARD THAT THERE IS OR WAS, IS EVER GONNA BRING ME DOWN!" Basically I'd like to think of this is my motto. I've spent a lot of time lately evaluating myself and what I stand for. For a long time I let people push me around and treat me like a nothing, but I've learned from that. And nobody in all the WORLD, no one that I know now or that I'll meet down the road, is ever gonna bring me down. I'm strong, I'm here, and I won't step down for anything.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
My Busy Birthday
Today was the day of my birth. Yes 18 years ago today I came into this world. So the day started off with a little shopping spree with my mom. This is a tradition we've been doing since I was 10. Every year we go out and I spend all the money I got from Christmas and my Birthday. This year I wasn't in much of a shopping mood though. But I ended up getting a new dress, shoes, and purse. After that we came home and got ready as fast as we could for our 7 p.m. reservation at Benihana. If you have never heard of this place or if you just haven't been there I strongly encourage you to check it out. It's a little pricey but so so worth it. I'm telling you people it's amazingness on a plate. So everyone got all dressed up which was so nice because we really didn't have to but they did for me :) Then we went and ate. While we were eating like seriouslly 6 people were sang happy birthday to. Well we finished our meal and no one had come to sing to me. (thank goodness) Then out of nowhere I here the song. Oh geez. My mom had told them it was my birthday when she made the reservation so there was no way I was gettin out of the song. It was good tho. Then we walked back to the car. On the way to the car we were walking through the casino and all these dudes kept staring at me. Out of no where my mom yells out "JAIL BAIT!" I started laughing and turned to her and informed her of the sad fact that I am no longer jail bait. However I am not up for grabs. Nope Nope Nope. Sorry fellas. So after that we came home and Chey came over! YAY! I'm so glad I was able to see him on my birthday. It made the whole day that much better. Except he found my weak spot. Yes I have a weak spot. I actually have a few and I try to keep them a secret for as long as possible because once people find out I'm done for. I'm like putty in their hands. So now I'm putty. Soft mushy moldable putty. And I'm sitting in the palm of his hand. Awesome right?!?! HAHA.
Oh YA! One more thing. I got locked out of my house tonight. Fantastic right. Grr. Not fantastic.
But still today was amazing.
Oh YA! One more thing. I got locked out of my house tonight. Fantastic right. Grr. Not fantastic.
But still today was amazing.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
HOORAY!
So today was intersting to say the least. I woke up to my mother informing me that because my brother wasn't home I was going to have to do all his chores. YAY FOR ME! After that I went to go get my nails done. While I was there the guy that was doing them told me it was his birthday! Only a day before mine! Then right after that I heard on the radio that the artist of one of my favorite songs is turning 18..on the 27th. HELLO! We were totally born on the same day! How awesome! No wonder I love his music so much. It's a soul to soul birthday connection. Then I came home and went back out to Best Buy. Let me tell you..I hate Best Buy. Well the one by my house anyways. I looked totally crappy and my ex works there not to mention I used to work there so everyone knows me. Awesome right? Wrong. So I snuck out of there and went to Curcuit City. Then I came home and my mom sent me back out. GAH! She wanted me to find a pan that doesn't exist. So when I couldn't find it I came home with what I thought would make a good substitute. (There's a Lot of T's in that word.) Well I was wrong. It wasn't a good substitute so we ate frozen lasagna instead. (Does anyone else ever wonder why there's a G in lasagna?) Which I didn't even eat because I went to the movies. Ok so you might be asking yourself..Wait Alix don't you work your life away on Fridays? Why yes, I do, but I decided to take the day off so I could spend my night with Chey and be happy instead of spending it at work and being sad. So even though I faked sick (a migraine to be exact) it was well worth it and I would do it again. This is what happened while I was not at work. We (we being Me, Chey, Shelby, and Danielle) decided to go see a movie at Aliante. haha Not smart but I wasn't spotted so its ok. Seriously not 5 seconds after I sit down Shelby leans over and says, "Well hurry up and hold his hand!" Sheesh! So I did. Then the movie got over and we walked like retards out. It was fun, we had a good laugh. Then I went the Chey's. That was fun. I picked out a stinky movie. (There Chey I'm admitting it..happy!..ya I bet you are! LOL) K really I think the movie is funny, but he complained so I guess I'm fired at picking movies. But I fired him last week, so who knows who's gonna pick the movies from now on. Anyways, like a 1/4 of the way through the movie I got hungry so we went to taco bell. That was exciting I suppose lol. As exciting as Taco Bell can be anyways. So then I raced home so I wouldn't be late for curfew and I made it YAY! So now techinically it is my birthday. My 18th birthday. I'm hoping it will be good altho my last couple birthdays have been stinkers. My plan is to get up and go shopping with my mom (the usually for the past 8 years) then go to dinner at a restaurant I can't spell but is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G then hopefully spend some time with Chey. Hey have you noticed by now that I'm acutally using his name instead of ****. Yes I'm making a fantastic improvement aren't I?!?! Yes I know. So all in all today was a very good day. :)
P.S. Chey I will find a way to sneak that $20 into your pocket (to repay you for taco bell since it was my crazy hunger impulse that caused you to spend your hard earned money) or car or wallet or somewhere where you'd least expect it. Not so much cuz I care about it that much but because you challenged me by saying I couldn't do it, so now I have to haha.
P.S.S. Thank you for the movie and the Taco Bell :)
P.P.S.S. YOUR FACE IS AMAZING! (by far not ugly!!!)
P.S. Chey I will find a way to sneak that $20 into your pocket (to repay you for taco bell since it was my crazy hunger impulse that caused you to spend your hard earned money) or car or wallet or somewhere where you'd least expect it. Not so much cuz I care about it that much but because you challenged me by saying I couldn't do it, so now I have to haha.
P.S.S. Thank you for the movie and the Taco Bell :)
P.P.S.S. YOUR FACE IS AMAZING! (by far not ugly!!!)
Friday, December 26, 2008
Happy
Lately this has been the only thing i've been feeling. Just happy. I have so much to be grateful for and so many reasons to be happy. I had a great Christmas and I was able to give my mom a good Christmas which is really all I wanted this year. I have amazing friends and I'm so glad I met them. I look back on the person I was and often wonder where I'd be if I had never come back to the church. For all I know I could've ended up pregnant at 17 and dropping out of high school. But I didn't. I have a new group of friends that are unlike any people I've ever known. I've never felt so surrounded by love. My mom is starting to come back into the church and that makes me happy. I went from thinking I would have none of my family there to share my wedding day with me to having my mother, my strongest support system and my best friend, taking the steps to be able to go to the temple with me. Tomorrow I'm going to be 18 and as I remeber my sixteenth birthday only 2 years ago I think of how my life has changed. I have millions of reasons to be happy and thankful and that's exactly what I am.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Home is where the heart is..ya and pigs can fly
Maybe for everyone else this statement is true, but it couldn't be more wrong in my life. I'm a victim of a disfunctional family. My parents are alcoholics, my grandma disowned one of her daughters 20 years ago, my aunt can't go 5 seconds without bringing someone down, and my brother and I are enemies. Family functions are a mess because no one wants to be there and they end in tears more then hugs. Tonight I came home after the worst shift of my life and just wanted to sit on the couch and relax. But no, now I'm sitting here in tears because I just got blamed for ruining everything. All because I got upset because my selfish brother through my clean clothes on the floor for all our animals to sit on. He started a fight with my mom and she told me if I hadn't come home none of this would've happened. Thanks family, I love you too.
Monday, December 22, 2008
I Have Problems....
Here are my problems.
1. It does not feel like Christmas to me. No need to really explain this, you can guess how this would obviously be a problem.
2. Right now..like right this very second I am sad. I have absolutely no idea why. Because let me tell you I have absolutely no reason to be sad at all. I'm actually very very happy for the first time in a while. So maybe I'm not actually sad, maybe I just need to cry. Like watch a sad movie and cry. I think I'll go watch Charlotte's Web cuz let me tell you that movie gets me everytime. So does Bridge to Terrabithia (I think that's how you spell it.) Those movies seriously make me bawl (not just cry) everytime I watch them. I turn them on and tell myself, "Ok today I'm not gonna cry!" and then the next thing I know I'm bawling like a baby. WHAT THE CRAP!
3. A few weeks ago my best friend told me she made plans for New Year's Eve. Well, I haven't seen her in 6 months and at the time I had planned on saving that night to hang out with her. So I (like an idiot) made her cancel all her plans so we could hang out. Well here I am 3 weeks later with plans. I was invited to a party (but more of like a family party I think) at ****'s house. Obviously I want to go and I said yes like a retard because ****'s amazing smile sucked me in and made me forget I ever had plans. So basically I have the following options: Tell **** I can't go and hang out with my best friend (which is obviously a smart choice if I want to continue my friendship..ho's before bro's) or ditch my friend and go to the party (hahaha this won't happen I'm just stating it) or ask **** if I can please bring my friend with altho that would make me feel horrible for intruding! GAH. Problems. Insane.
4. Obviously if your to this part of the blog you read number 3. So then you probly noticed I kept referring to someone as ****. Well this is because I'm not sure exactly what to call him. I don't want to put his name on my blog (because I don't really like putting names in my blog). But I'm not keeping him a secret. In fact I'd like to tell everyone who it is because I feel lucky. But I also don't want to put his name in my blog and freak him out. Cuz for all I know maybe he doesn't want anyone to know he's associating with me. Well, as I have mentioned before I worry..sometimes a lot. So right now I'm worried. This is my worrying stage. This is the stage in between getting to know someone and actually forming the bf/gf title. I hate this stage because I don't want to be a retard and actually ask what we are. But I always do anyways because I always worry about it. Even though it's just a title I usually feel the need to have it. This is because I have been scarred. You see, not so long ago I was "dating" someone. Basically we were just making out. And he would tell me that we couldn't have the title and when I would try and argue he would just say..why does the title matter. Then out of no where when I was least expecting it he ended up with a girlfriend. She got the title..what the crap was the matter with me that I couldn't have the title. So I got heart broken and he got a girlfriend. Nice trade right. Well that is why I like titles. Yes of course with a title a guy can still break up with you for another girl, but at least you would have closure and you wouldn't feel like a complete idiot. That's just how I feel. So anyways...back to ****. If we had the title it would for some odd reason make me feel better and then I would put my name in his blog. Heck I'd probably even put it on facebook. But with no title that's a no go. So I guess for now its ****.
5. I would really like to blog about ****, but again I'm freaken out about that. I have a nasty habit of getting attached to people and then they bail. So my only defense is to keep everything about the person underwraps for a little bit. You see, if I start talking about **** and how I'm feeling and all that, with my luck he will read it, totally freak out, and bail. Then what am I supposed to do?
Ok so for those of you reading this I probably sound either really whiny (for freaking out over probably nothing) or I sound really emo. Well I'm really not either. These are just the things on my mind that go with the title. I am emmensly happy with life right now. If things keep going the way they are going I will never be sad again. I'm just afraid things won't go the way I want them to. I know I worry and I know I'm retarded for doing it, but I can't help it. Not only is this just who I am, but I've also learned very harsh lessons from people in my past. I'm tired of being hurt.
So those are my problems as of this moment. Hopefull they will be resolved very soon.
1. It does not feel like Christmas to me. No need to really explain this, you can guess how this would obviously be a problem.
2. Right now..like right this very second I am sad. I have absolutely no idea why. Because let me tell you I have absolutely no reason to be sad at all. I'm actually very very happy for the first time in a while. So maybe I'm not actually sad, maybe I just need to cry. Like watch a sad movie and cry. I think I'll go watch Charlotte's Web cuz let me tell you that movie gets me everytime. So does Bridge to Terrabithia (I think that's how you spell it.) Those movies seriously make me bawl (not just cry) everytime I watch them. I turn them on and tell myself, "Ok today I'm not gonna cry!" and then the next thing I know I'm bawling like a baby. WHAT THE CRAP!
3. A few weeks ago my best friend told me she made plans for New Year's Eve. Well, I haven't seen her in 6 months and at the time I had planned on saving that night to hang out with her. So I (like an idiot) made her cancel all her plans so we could hang out. Well here I am 3 weeks later with plans. I was invited to a party (but more of like a family party I think) at ****'s house. Obviously I want to go and I said yes like a retard because ****'s amazing smile sucked me in and made me forget I ever had plans. So basically I have the following options: Tell **** I can't go and hang out with my best friend (which is obviously a smart choice if I want to continue my friendship..ho's before bro's) or ditch my friend and go to the party (hahaha this won't happen I'm just stating it) or ask **** if I can please bring my friend with altho that would make me feel horrible for intruding! GAH. Problems. Insane.
4. Obviously if your to this part of the blog you read number 3. So then you probly noticed I kept referring to someone as ****. Well this is because I'm not sure exactly what to call him. I don't want to put his name on my blog (because I don't really like putting names in my blog). But I'm not keeping him a secret. In fact I'd like to tell everyone who it is because I feel lucky. But I also don't want to put his name in my blog and freak him out. Cuz for all I know maybe he doesn't want anyone to know he's associating with me. Well, as I have mentioned before I worry..sometimes a lot. So right now I'm worried. This is my worrying stage. This is the stage in between getting to know someone and actually forming the bf/gf title. I hate this stage because I don't want to be a retard and actually ask what we are. But I always do anyways because I always worry about it. Even though it's just a title I usually feel the need to have it. This is because I have been scarred. You see, not so long ago I was "dating" someone. Basically we were just making out. And he would tell me that we couldn't have the title and when I would try and argue he would just say..why does the title matter. Then out of no where when I was least expecting it he ended up with a girlfriend. She got the title..what the crap was the matter with me that I couldn't have the title. So I got heart broken and he got a girlfriend. Nice trade right. Well that is why I like titles. Yes of course with a title a guy can still break up with you for another girl, but at least you would have closure and you wouldn't feel like a complete idiot. That's just how I feel. So anyways...back to ****. If we had the title it would for some odd reason make me feel better and then I would put my name in his blog. Heck I'd probably even put it on facebook. But with no title that's a no go. So I guess for now its ****.
5. I would really like to blog about ****, but again I'm freaken out about that. I have a nasty habit of getting attached to people and then they bail. So my only defense is to keep everything about the person underwraps for a little bit. You see, if I start talking about **** and how I'm feeling and all that, with my luck he will read it, totally freak out, and bail. Then what am I supposed to do?
Ok so for those of you reading this I probably sound either really whiny (for freaking out over probably nothing) or I sound really emo. Well I'm really not either. These are just the things on my mind that go with the title. I am emmensly happy with life right now. If things keep going the way they are going I will never be sad again. I'm just afraid things won't go the way I want them to. I know I worry and I know I'm retarded for doing it, but I can't help it. Not only is this just who I am, but I've also learned very harsh lessons from people in my past. I'm tired of being hurt.
So those are my problems as of this moment. Hopefull they will be resolved very soon.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
I Just Keep On Blogging
K I know this is my 2 post today but I felt compelled to write another one. Have you ever stared at yourself for so long your face becomes all jumbled up. You know its you but you feel like your not even looking at yourself. That's how I feel right now. I look at pictures of myself and I think back to the person I was during those times and I feel a ton on different things. Confusion being one of them. Why was I that kind of person then? I wonder this quite often. And when I look at my old pictures and then people I used to hang out with I often wonder where I'd be know if it hadn't been for certain people. Sometimes I look at myself and I wonder if I can live up to the expectations that people have of me. It's like they look at me and expect me to achieve something I'm not capable of. Or do people look at me and think I'm less of the person I really am. Maybe I'm not living up to my own expectations. All I know is I'm about to hit a breaking point. It won't be dramatic in fact I know it will be very subtle, but it's going to be big enough to set myself up for the rest of my life and determine that kind of person I'll soon become.
Broken Rules
About a month ago I came to the realization that I was in a place I didn't wanna be in. You see I am a relationship kind of girl. I like being with one person. I do not like dating around and altho dates are fun I try to avoid the whole date with a new guy every weekend thing. Well for a while I was having terrible luck in the boy department. So I decided to go with the flow of what everyone else was doing instead of following my heart. So I did the date around thing. I was a playa. HAHA not really, but I went on as many dates as I could with a bunch of different guys. It was fun untill I decided to go into the hook up phase. It was superficially fun. On the service it looked like I was enjoying the fact that I was single and able to kiss who ever I wanted. But everytime I kissed someone my heart broke a little more. I felt like I was never good enough for someone to like me, I was only a hookup. Obviously no one wants to feel that way. So one day not too long ago I went to hang out with someone I've known and liked for a while. We sat in my car for almost 3 hours and talked, but we both knew what was going to evetually happen that night. I'm going to put it out there that I did not want to kiss him, only because I did like him and I knew if I kissed him nothing would come of it. But I tricked myself into thinking that maybe if I did kiss him he would see the light and maybe we would end up dating. As soon as I got home that night I knew I had made a mistake. Nothing was going to happen with this boy and my self esteem was crushed again. I had been doing the hookup scene for so long I had convinced myself that guys would not like me if I wasn't making out with them. Finally I opened my eyes and realized I was being an idiot. So that night I signed a contract with myself. I told myself I would not kiss anyone unless I was dating them. This way I would know the guy liked me for me.
Now I'm sure your wondering how the title of this blog ties into this. Well I've been talking to a guy and things have been going great. He's such a great guy. Well last night we were hanging out and I knew what was comin. Everyone told me I would break my rule and even though I said i wouldn't I knew I would. So last night when I walked him out it happened and I broke my rule.
I'm not gonna lie when I say I'm not totally upset that I broke my rule because I'm not. But I can't help worrying a little. That's just how I am, I worry. But still. I broke my rule because I'm hoping that I won't regret it. I'm hoping that I didn't break if for nothing. But the worry side of me is questioning my better judgement. What if I did break my rule and I'll regret it? Scary thought right. Gah..Ya I know. Well for now I guess I'll just see what happens, there's no point in worrying right this second.
Now I'm sure your wondering how the title of this blog ties into this. Well I've been talking to a guy and things have been going great. He's such a great guy. Well last night we were hanging out and I knew what was comin. Everyone told me I would break my rule and even though I said i wouldn't I knew I would. So last night when I walked him out it happened and I broke my rule.
I'm not gonna lie when I say I'm not totally upset that I broke my rule because I'm not. But I can't help worrying a little. That's just how I am, I worry. But still. I broke my rule because I'm hoping that I won't regret it. I'm hoping that I didn't break if for nothing. But the worry side of me is questioning my better judgement. What if I did break my rule and I'll regret it? Scary thought right. Gah..Ya I know. Well for now I guess I'll just see what happens, there's no point in worrying right this second.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Alright, Listen You!!!
I know that you are reading my blog! I know you are! You think you can trick me but I'm smarter than you think. The only place I posted my schedule was in this blog and you slipped up by revealing yourself. But maybe you slipped up on purpose..hmm...it's possible but much to mind boggling for me to think about right now. Well fine then. If your gonna read my blog then maybe I'll give you what you want..or maybe I won't..maybe I'll let you wonder around my blog and find the post that talks about you. That would be funny. But I won't do that to you. I hope you enjoy reading my blog. Now I feel stupid because I put a bunch of super embarrassing things on here! And now you know some of my deep dark secrets and you didn't even tell me! GAH! Thanks. Alright here's the deal.
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Once upon a time there was a girl named..umm..well her name doesn't really matter. And there was a boy named..well his name doesn't matter either. They met over the summer on a fun little vacation. They didn't really talk much though. A few weeks after that vacation the girls best friend had a birthday party and the boy showed up. She put on her nicest smile and flirted all night. She tried to get the boys number, but he saw through her tricks and wouldn't give it to her. But the girl wouldn't give up. She went to a friend who had the boys number and got it from him. There was a problem though. The boy had a girlfriend. But the girl texted him anyways and decided they could at least become friends. They lost touch though and didn't talk for a few months. Then suddenly out of no where the boy texted the girl. She was excited and talked to him for the day. She went to bed that night happy that the boy texted her, but she knew that they probably wouldn't talk for a while. Suprisingly the boy texted her again the next day. She was so excited to be talking to him! They talked everyday for weeks. Then the girl decided she wanted to see the boy. After many failed attempts they finally were able to hang out. When she saw him she thought he was even cuter than when they first met. She was glad she got to see him again, but still wondered if anything was going to come of this. About a week later she asked the boy to hang out again. He said yes and came over to watch movies. Soon the 2 were quite comfortable on the couch together and the girl was very happy. Make that very very happy. She went to bed that night with butterflies in her stomach and a smile on her face. She dreamed of what the future might hold for the girl and the boy. She was falling for him and hoped he felt the same.
I'd like to give the ending to this story, but I don't know what the ending is yet. Hopefully I can get back to you. But in the mean time....To Be Continued.
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Once upon a time there was a girl named..umm..well her name doesn't really matter. And there was a boy named..well his name doesn't matter either. They met over the summer on a fun little vacation. They didn't really talk much though. A few weeks after that vacation the girls best friend had a birthday party and the boy showed up. She put on her nicest smile and flirted all night. She tried to get the boys number, but he saw through her tricks and wouldn't give it to her. But the girl wouldn't give up. She went to a friend who had the boys number and got it from him. There was a problem though. The boy had a girlfriend. But the girl texted him anyways and decided they could at least become friends. They lost touch though and didn't talk for a few months. Then suddenly out of no where the boy texted the girl. She was excited and talked to him for the day. She went to bed that night happy that the boy texted her, but she knew that they probably wouldn't talk for a while. Suprisingly the boy texted her again the next day. She was so excited to be talking to him! They talked everyday for weeks. Then the girl decided she wanted to see the boy. After many failed attempts they finally were able to hang out. When she saw him she thought he was even cuter than when they first met. She was glad she got to see him again, but still wondered if anything was going to come of this. About a week later she asked the boy to hang out again. He said yes and came over to watch movies. Soon the 2 were quite comfortable on the couch together and the girl was very happy. Make that very very happy. She went to bed that night with butterflies in her stomach and a smile on her face. She dreamed of what the future might hold for the girl and the boy. She was falling for him and hoped he felt the same.
I'd like to give the ending to this story, but I don't know what the ending is yet. Hopefully I can get back to you. But in the mean time....To Be Continued.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!
I have been trying to register for classes at UNLV since October. After many many complications I logged on today with the shocking reality that I could register! YAY! So now I'm all set for my first semester of college!
Here's my schedule:
Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday
Class from 10-1
Thursday class from 10-5
:) It works with my job and I won't have to get up really early!
WOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Here's my schedule:
Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday
Class from 10-1
Thursday class from 10-5
:) It works with my job and I won't have to get up really early!
WOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
GAHHHHHHHHHH!
So today is Tuesday, but it's my Friday! I was so excited to have the next 2 days off but so not looking forward to going to work. Well something amazing happened and my boss gave me the day off! YAY but that left me with nothing to do and so now I'm bored out of my mind. Even though I want to be doing something right now I don't feel like showering either so I don't want to go out. So I was going to work on my jigsaw puzzle all night, but I can't do that either. You see I put my puzzle in a really inconveniant spot and it kills my back to sit there and work on it. Plus I'm not in the right mind set so I'm not even getting any pieces together. I thought about going to sleep because that makes time pass by faster, but if I go to sleep now I will wake up at midnight and be wired. Trust me this happens all the time. So for now I'm blogging not because I have a whole lot to say but because I have absolutely nothing better to do. I really want to eat because I do that a lot when I'm bored but we don't have any good food in my house (which is probably good) I have nothing good to do with my life because for the first time in forever I got up early and didn't go back to sleep. Really I shouldn't be whining about having nothing to do because as I look around my room I can see tons of things to do. But oh well! I realized in my boredom that commercials suck butt! Which is why channel surfing is good. While I was channel surfing I was texting, but my house doesn't get great service in the living room. The service is fine in my room so I really wanted to watch tv in there but I don't have a remote in there. So I either had to give up textings to avoid commercials or put up with commercials to text. The commercials won and I gave up texting. Also I've decided I have like no life. All day everyday I visit a total of 5 websites which include Facebook, Blogspot, UNLV, AOL, and occasionally an outside website which lately has comsisted of the website to read Midnight Sun. My life is boring. I barely even google anything anymore! Sheesh! But that reminds me I could go read to waste time, but I probably won't. So I'm glad I got tonight off because anything is better than work but I have learned my lesson and my next 2 nights off I will definately make plans to go out! FO SHO! If your reading this please text me! I need people to talk to so my brain doesn't melt from watching too much tv!
I Blame Shelby and Danielle
So a few nights ago I went to go hang out with Shelby and Danielle. When I got to Danielle's, she and Shelby were putting together a puzzle. I sat down with them to put some stuff together and now I'm a disaster and I blame them! Not really but still lol. I hate leaving puzzles unfinished and because I can't really go over and take over Danielle's puzzle I needed to start my own so i could finish it! So here I am at 1 in the morning blogging because I had to literally tear myself away from the stinkin puzzle. If I didn't stop now I'd stay up till 4 in the morning. GAH! Now I will be sleep deprived untill I get this thing done! THANKS GUYS! lol
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Story Time
A few details have been exaggerated in this story for entertaiment purposes. (The girl did not really cry however she was very sad!!!)
Once upon a few nights ago a girl was sitting around bored as heck and looking for something to do. She made plans with someone who very rudely decided to ditch her. She drove and drove all around town wracking her brains to find the perfect person that could comfort her in this time of need. The suddenly it hit her like a ton of bricks and she called someone she knew she could count on, someone who had been through good and bad times, someone who she knew would not turn her away, and someone she trusted with her whole heart. So she called her friend and she was very sad when he answered because she knew he was sleeping. She offered to let him go, but being the kind heart he was he talked to her. He offered to go to get slurpees with her, but then decided it would be better if she just went to go talk to him at his house. So she went with a happy heart because he very reliable friend had come through. They got to catch up on their lives (which made the girl extremely happy because she rarely gets to talk to her dear friend), they laughed and they giggled and they even shared things that undeer normal circumstances could never be shared (this again made the girl very happy because she knew she had an amazing frienship with this person). After so long the boy grew tired of the girl though and kicked her out of the house. She begged and pleaded to stay knowing that the moment she left the reality of her bad night would hit her again and she would be very sad. She decided to make a deal with him and as long as he flexed and played one simple song on his guitar that she loved so very much she would leave. But the boy refused and her heart sank and he slumped down on to his bed and ignored the poor heart broken girl. So feeling like she needed to leave with some good memory of his (because she knew it would be a long time before they talked/got together again) she took a small token of $6 out ofhis wallet and placed it in her pocket. She left quickly after that and got in her car to drive home. Within minutes of starting the car he heart sank and tears began to well up in her eyes. The ppor girl had been turned away by 2 people that night and to be honest being turned away by her dear friend was the worst part. When she got home she curled up and realized that her dear friend was still a good friend for taking her in that night and it was not his fault he had to work early and turned her out into the cold. But then she recieved a message from the boy and even though she promised she wasn't mad at him he didn't believe her and her heart was yet again broken and she cried herself to sleep.
The end
P.S. Blair you owe me a song
Once upon a few nights ago a girl was sitting around bored as heck and looking for something to do. She made plans with someone who very rudely decided to ditch her. She drove and drove all around town wracking her brains to find the perfect person that could comfort her in this time of need. The suddenly it hit her like a ton of bricks and she called someone she knew she could count on, someone who had been through good and bad times, someone who she knew would not turn her away, and someone she trusted with her whole heart. So she called her friend and she was very sad when he answered because she knew he was sleeping. She offered to let him go, but being the kind heart he was he talked to her. He offered to go to get slurpees with her, but then decided it would be better if she just went to go talk to him at his house. So she went with a happy heart because he very reliable friend had come through. They got to catch up on their lives (which made the girl extremely happy because she rarely gets to talk to her dear friend), they laughed and they giggled and they even shared things that undeer normal circumstances could never be shared (this again made the girl very happy because she knew she had an amazing frienship with this person). After so long the boy grew tired of the girl though and kicked her out of the house. She begged and pleaded to stay knowing that the moment she left the reality of her bad night would hit her again and she would be very sad. She decided to make a deal with him and as long as he flexed and played one simple song on his guitar that she loved so very much she would leave. But the boy refused and her heart sank and he slumped down on to his bed and ignored the poor heart broken girl. So feeling like she needed to leave with some good memory of his (because she knew it would be a long time before they talked/got together again) she took a small token of $6 out ofhis wallet and placed it in her pocket. She left quickly after that and got in her car to drive home. Within minutes of starting the car he heart sank and tears began to well up in her eyes. The ppor girl had been turned away by 2 people that night and to be honest being turned away by her dear friend was the worst part. When she got home she curled up and realized that her dear friend was still a good friend for taking her in that night and it was not his fault he had to work early and turned her out into the cold. But then she recieved a message from the boy and even though she promised she wasn't mad at him he didn't believe her and her heart was yet again broken and she cried herself to sleep.
The end
P.S. Blair you owe me a song
Saturday, December 13, 2008
This is Different
For those of you who read my blog last night this is sort of a continuation. This is different though. Brace yourself for a moment while I tell you the inner workings of my brain. You see, when I am irritated or sad or disappointed I like to go to sleep. This might sound like an odd way of dealing with things, but it ends up working out quite nicely. I go to sleep and when I wake up however many hours later I almost completely forget about the bad feelings I was having. The issue resolves itself and I am no longer upset. There have been times in my life when I've gotten really really irritated at something and even wished I would wake up the next day still mad just to prove a point to whoever I was mad at. It's never happened though...until today. Obviously from my previous blog I was not a happy camper last night. After I blogged I read some Twilight and then fell asleep. When I woke up this morning everyone wanted to talk about what had happened last night. This usually doesn't rehash the feelings, but for some reason today it did. I am still fuming about last night. And at the same time I'm really upset about it. So now I'm off to work which will probably not improve my mood because people will be yelling at me all night. So if you love me and you consider yourself a friend of mine I would much appreciate it if you texted me tonight. Just please don't talk about last night.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Heavy Heart
So tonight was SUPER exciting. I got the night off work so I could go hang out with this guy that I've been talking to for a couple weeks. We went to this thing out at the speedway called midnight mayhem. It was cold but it was way worth it cuz it was a blast!
Basically that's what I wish I could've posted...instead this is what really happened tonight.
The whole unravelling of my day happened around noon today. I had some issues with UNLV and then I had some issues with work. The UNLV issue never got resolved so I'm still irritated about that but I found out I had the night off of work tonight. The part about taking it off to hang out with the guy I've been talking to was true. And we were supposed to go to the speedway, but as you can tell by the past tense those things didn't happen. I went to Danielle's house to hang out with her and Shelby because I was not about to waste my night away waiting for some guy to text me. So we worked on a puzzle and then he texted me. His friend was driving out to the speedway so I said I would meet them there so I wouldn't be late for curfew. At about 9:30 I told him I was on my way even though it was freezing outside and I had no desire to go all the way out to the speedway. When I got to the 215 he told me that they had decided to leave. Now I wasn't to upset about this because in my mind the logical thing would have been to just invite me to whatever was going on after the speedway (which was hanging out at his house). Well when I figured that suggestion wasn't going to be brought up I decided to call a friend that I haven't seen in a while. We hung out and it was fun. We had some interesting convos and got to catch up which is something we don't get to do very often. At around 11 I left and hopped in my car to go home. I started my drive down the road and decided to call the guy I was supposed to be hanging out with. Why oh why did I commit this act of insanity? Because I'm insane apparently. Luckily he didn't answer. But for some reason tears welled up in my eyes and the realization of what had happened hit me. I had been stood up. Not something that has ever happened to me. Not saying that I'm some amazing person that no one would ever think of standing up, I'm just saying it's never happened. I called one of my best friends but she was sleeping and I was left in a silent car with no one to talk to. I couldn't even bring myself to turn the radio on to drown out my thoughts. No, instead I sat there like an idiot with tears soaking up my face, rambling to myself about nonsense things that only made me cry more. When things happen to me that weren't exactly how I pictured I like to let all my past misfortunes come back to haunt me. I'm not sure why I do this and it's obviously not very healthy, but I can't help it. Not only that, but I like to think I'm a very...hopefull person (for lack of better words). I like to find good in the people around me. I make up excuses for their faults and I take their good and make it seem even better. I hope for the best, but in the real world the best doesn't always happen. And instead of just accepting someone I find a way to blame myself for their mistake. I've been making a habit of this for years and the only thing it does is break my heart. I'm not saying that there aren't good people out there, but people aren't perfect. Still, I find a way to make it my fault. So I sit here, in bed, writing this blog as a very depressed person because life isn't perfect and either are people. I just wish I didn't get the crap end of it all.
Basically that's what I wish I could've posted...instead this is what really happened tonight.
The whole unravelling of my day happened around noon today. I had some issues with UNLV and then I had some issues with work. The UNLV issue never got resolved so I'm still irritated about that but I found out I had the night off of work tonight. The part about taking it off to hang out with the guy I've been talking to was true. And we were supposed to go to the speedway, but as you can tell by the past tense those things didn't happen. I went to Danielle's house to hang out with her and Shelby because I was not about to waste my night away waiting for some guy to text me. So we worked on a puzzle and then he texted me. His friend was driving out to the speedway so I said I would meet them there so I wouldn't be late for curfew. At about 9:30 I told him I was on my way even though it was freezing outside and I had no desire to go all the way out to the speedway. When I got to the 215 he told me that they had decided to leave. Now I wasn't to upset about this because in my mind the logical thing would have been to just invite me to whatever was going on after the speedway (which was hanging out at his house). Well when I figured that suggestion wasn't going to be brought up I decided to call a friend that I haven't seen in a while. We hung out and it was fun. We had some interesting convos and got to catch up which is something we don't get to do very often. At around 11 I left and hopped in my car to go home. I started my drive down the road and decided to call the guy I was supposed to be hanging out with. Why oh why did I commit this act of insanity? Because I'm insane apparently. Luckily he didn't answer. But for some reason tears welled up in my eyes and the realization of what had happened hit me. I had been stood up. Not something that has ever happened to me. Not saying that I'm some amazing person that no one would ever think of standing up, I'm just saying it's never happened. I called one of my best friends but she was sleeping and I was left in a silent car with no one to talk to. I couldn't even bring myself to turn the radio on to drown out my thoughts. No, instead I sat there like an idiot with tears soaking up my face, rambling to myself about nonsense things that only made me cry more. When things happen to me that weren't exactly how I pictured I like to let all my past misfortunes come back to haunt me. I'm not sure why I do this and it's obviously not very healthy, but I can't help it. Not only that, but I like to think I'm a very...hopefull person (for lack of better words). I like to find good in the people around me. I make up excuses for their faults and I take their good and make it seem even better. I hope for the best, but in the real world the best doesn't always happen. And instead of just accepting someone I find a way to blame myself for their mistake. I've been making a habit of this for years and the only thing it does is break my heart. I'm not saying that there aren't good people out there, but people aren't perfect. Still, I find a way to make it my fault. So I sit here, in bed, writing this blog as a very depressed person because life isn't perfect and either are people. I just wish I didn't get the crap end of it all.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
One Good Deed
So tonight was pretty insane I'm not even gonna lie. I went to go hang out with Jordan and Jeff which was pretty fun. We watched Kungfu Panda which was hilarious! We couldn't stop laughing. But that's not the insane part of course. At 9:40 pm I hopped in my car to travel home. 20 minutes was the perfect amount of time to meet my very strict 10:00 curfew. On my way home Shelby called me to tell me about her date. By the time I was about 5 minutes away from home I was stopped at a 4 way stop. The car at the stop sign to my right started honking at me. I disregarded it and kept driving. The car followed me honking the entire way. I was starting to freak out because by this time I was pulling up to the gate outside my community and the car was still following me. Luckily I had one of my smarter moments and didn't open the gate for creepo to get in and follow me home. The strange car pulled up next to me and rolled down there window. I leaned over and rolled mine down. I found a lady in the car next to me bawling her eyes out and looking quite disstressed. Then in her new york accent she choked out the words "I'm lost!" Apparently she had just moved here with her family from New York. Her daughter was stranded at Centennial HS and she didn't know where that was. Well I'm street retarded and didn't know either, but Shelby was there to save the day. I handed her the phone (which she handed to her son because she sad she was too upset to be on a phone) and Shelby gave directions. The poor kid looked like he was listening to giberish. Even though I'm sure Shelby gave them awesome directions they had no idea where to go so the lady asked if she could follow me down there. At this point it was 9:59 but I decided to take advantage of the situation and do a good deed. The lady had a hard time following me though, she said she couldn't see because she forgot her glasses and she only had one working head light. Also, I don't think she realized the 215 was a freeway, that or her car was topping out at 40, because she drove from bradley to durango going 35. On the way there my mom and Shelby scared me into thinking the lady was scamming me and I was going to get kidnapped. So I freaked out once again and started telling Shelby my last words. I really did this you can ask her and everything. Well the lady found her way and before I bid her farewell she said, "Thank you so much for helping me you're such a sweetheart...I'll never watch CSI again!" I'm not sure what CSI had to do with anything but she seemed happy enough to have found her daughter and I bet she'll never forget how to get to Centennial.
One last thing. When the lady was first explaining to me what was going on she apologized for scaring me by honking and then said ,"In New York if someone honks everyone stops to help, but I guess it's not like that here."
Honestly people we should be ashamed of ourselves. Think about the last time you were honked at and how you reacted. I know that the last time someone honked at me it was because they were pissed and it actually was followed by the driver flipping me off. It used to be that people would honk just to say hi, but now the only time we honk is when we're pissed off at someone. Personally I don't honk hardly ever. My reflexes are to slow to think about slamming onmy brake AND honking a horn so i usually only honk my horn to wave at the missionaries. But seriously, there is so much evil and corruption in the world. I mean my first thought tonight was immediately bad. I'm not saying that we need to trust every person we come in contact with (cuz let's face it there are bad people out there) but maybe if we looked for the good before the bad the world would be a little happier.
All I know is I'm gonna get a great night sleep after my little good deed. And Shelby should get one too for the help! I couldn't have gotten to Centennial without her!! Night all : )
One last thing. When the lady was first explaining to me what was going on she apologized for scaring me by honking and then said ,"In New York if someone honks everyone stops to help, but I guess it's not like that here."
Honestly people we should be ashamed of ourselves. Think about the last time you were honked at and how you reacted. I know that the last time someone honked at me it was because they were pissed and it actually was followed by the driver flipping me off. It used to be that people would honk just to say hi, but now the only time we honk is when we're pissed off at someone. Personally I don't honk hardly ever. My reflexes are to slow to think about slamming onmy brake AND honking a horn so i usually only honk my horn to wave at the missionaries. But seriously, there is so much evil and corruption in the world. I mean my first thought tonight was immediately bad. I'm not saying that we need to trust every person we come in contact with (cuz let's face it there are bad people out there) but maybe if we looked for the good before the bad the world would be a little happier.
All I know is I'm gonna get a great night sleep after my little good deed. And Shelby should get one too for the help! I couldn't have gotten to Centennial without her!! Night all : )
Mac & Cheese and Relient K
So today i got up and went grocery shopping for my mom because i love her and i like to simplify her life. So while i was at the store i decided i was hungry and needed something for lunch. I haven't had mac & cheese in a long time so i picked up a box. I was so excited to get home and open my little blue box and give my taste buds a special treat. I followed all the directions on the box perfectly and then sat down to eat. After about 10 bites i came to the realization that mac & cheese is disgusting. Its like spam or hamburger helper. My family jokes about the nastiness of these foods. If you eat them I'm very sorry because you are missing out on truly delicious food if you believe it just doesn't get better than hamburger helper.
So i'd like to make a statement that i hate mac and cheese. But I'm not totally against the boxed dinners. In fact I am here to testify that Pasta-Roni is amazingness in a box!
So i'd like to make a statement that i hate mac and cheese. But I'm not totally against the boxed dinners. In fact I am here to testify that Pasta-Roni is amazingness in a box!So basically i'm challenging everyone to go try pasta roni if you haven't cuz its way better that mac and cheese! and its cheaper! It's less than a dollar at walmart and HELLO how great of a deal is that!
So aside from my mac & cheese epiphany i decided to listen to some music, but instead of listening to one of my playlists i hit shuffle. It's amazing the things that come on when you hit shuffle. You end up listening to stuff you forgot you even had. I didn't forget i had relient k on my ipod but it came on and i just realized AGAIN how amazing that band is. Seriously music is so amazing! I don't understand how some people can go even the slightest amount of time without listening to anything. There is a song out there for everything. Every mood i've ever been in has had a song to match. And every situation has had a song. Right now my theme song is Crush by David Archuleta. Hmm yes this song definately describes me right now. Well that's enough blogging for now..i need to go pick up my brother from school. YUCK! its such an inconveniance but only 1 more week and i never have to do it again! YAY
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Life Just Got A Little Better
So i got up early this morning so Shelby and I could decorate my house for Christmas. It was a lot of fun and now my house has a touch of Christmas spirit. We took lots of pictures and when i went to put them on my computer i descovered a lot of other pictures! And i never post pictures so now you can see into the amazing life of me instead of just hearing about it.
This is Shelby! She's putting the boy on my pole or lamp post of whatever you call it. You can't tell, but it was freezing outside! We las vegans can't handle the 60 degree weather apparently, but hey you have to factor in wind chill too!
Shelby is taping our sparkly stuff (tinsel i think its called..or maybe garland) to the pole. Right before this i decided to run around it to get the garland to spiral like that. I basically looked like an idiot, Shelby got a good laugh, and my neighbors probly thought i was insane.
The before shot of the pole!
This is our tree once it was done!! isn't it pretty! ya i know your jealous of our awesome tree trimming skills!
The finished tree with my cat. She kept trying to climb it. I thought Shelby was gonna kill her.
We were putting on the LAST BULBS!
Hey look its me!
Those were all the bulbs that we put on the tree! CRAZY STUFF
All the decorations
The before shot of our sad little tree
The only reason this picture is on my blog is because it is a personal record for me. If you look in the backgroung you can clearly see that my bed it made. This is an epic peice of history my friends and you are now a part of it.
This was taken the wednesday before Thanksgiving. A bunch of friends and I went down to the strip and the clouds were so low they turned green from the lights! Pretty amazing to see..not to mention is the best color ever..GREEN.
The purple sky!
This is the gate to the temple. As you can see it is closed. This was because Shelby and I are retarded and went to the temple on FHE and they close early so we got to go look at it from the outside. FUN RIGHT?! Ya your jealous..I feel ya.
This is Shelby! She's putting the boy on my pole or lamp post of whatever you call it. You can't tell, but it was freezing outside! We las vegans can't handle the 60 degree weather apparently, but hey you have to factor in wind chill too!
Shelby is taping our sparkly stuff (tinsel i think its called..or maybe garland) to the pole. Right before this i decided to run around it to get the garland to spiral like that. I basically looked like an idiot, Shelby got a good laugh, and my neighbors probly thought i was insane.
The before shot of the pole!
This is our tree once it was done!! isn't it pretty! ya i know your jealous of our awesome tree trimming skills!
The finished tree with my cat. She kept trying to climb it. I thought Shelby was gonna kill her.
We were putting on the LAST BULBS!
Hey look its me!
Those were all the bulbs that we put on the tree! CRAZY STUFF
All the decorations
The before shot of our sad little tree
The only reason this picture is on my blog is because it is a personal record for me. If you look in the backgroung you can clearly see that my bed it made. This is an epic peice of history my friends and you are now a part of it.
This was taken the wednesday before Thanksgiving. A bunch of friends and I went down to the strip and the clouds were so low they turned green from the lights! Pretty amazing to see..not to mention is the best color ever..GREEN.
The purple sky!
This is the gate to the temple. As you can see it is closed. This was because Shelby and I are retarded and went to the temple on FHE and they close early so we got to go look at it from the outside. FUN RIGHT?! Ya your jealous..I feel ya.
OK! so i'm sorry for those of you who already saw those pictures on facebook! ANYWAYS! In other knews...tonight was my friday at work. It was actually not that bad. It went by really fast i baarely even got yelled at! YAY. Something embarrassing happened tho. So i was the last cashier to get to work so i got stuck on the sucky register. It's especially sucky right now cuz we have a huge sign that sits right in front of you so people can see you but you can't really see them untill they get right in your face. So i'm ringing someone up and out of the corner of my eye i see 2 guys standing. One is standing where i can see him and the other is hiding behind the sign. The one guy that i could see and he wouldn't stop staring at me. He even had that "i think i know you" stare going on. So my imagination ran wild and i ended up convincing myself that the guy i couldn't see was someone i knew and they were talking about me which is why the one guy wouldn't stop staring. People i could feel my face getting hot which is not a good sign. I blush easily as it is so when i feel it its SUPER bad. Well it turns out im an idiot cuz i didn't know either of the guys.
So speaking of guys...actually..im not going to speak of any guys in case the one i want to talk about ends up reading this.
In other news..i have a huge headache so i need to get off. hopefully tomorrow ill feel better and ill be able to blog my little heart out to you!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Kids Ruin Everything
Ok..don't get me wrong, I love kids. But lately kids are ruining my life. I was totally excited for this Friday. I was going to decorate my house for Christmas and finish my Christmas shopping. I was so excited! (have you noticed the past tense yet) About 10 minutes ago I got a call from the hostess that was supposed to cover my shift. She can't anymore because she doesn't have a babysitter. Her mom was going to do it, but she's going on vacation now. So I get to take my happy little butt to work and deal with all kinds of angry people who have nothin better to do but harrass us.
The other reason kids are pissing me off right now is because of kids I might not be able to move out for a while. People that are close to me know that I can not wait to move out. You see about a year ago my aunt started building her mansion..I mean house..up by the temple. While they were building it they lived in a smaller 2 bedroom house right next door. Well they're bigger house is finished and now they're renting out the smaller one. We were supposed to move in this March. Why March you ask. Well right now a soon to be doctor and his wife are living in the house. So everything thing was going well and the plans were starting to play out untill about 2 weeks ago. We found out we might not get to move in this March because the doctor got a little frisky and got his wife pregnant! SO NOW THEY MIGHT NOT MOVE OUT! What the crap!! Honestly? So now I don't know if I will be able to move out and will be stuck in my freedomless house forever.
So as you can see kids ruin everything! GAH gaygaygay
The other reason kids are pissing me off right now is because of kids I might not be able to move out for a while. People that are close to me know that I can not wait to move out. You see about a year ago my aunt started building her mansion..I mean house..up by the temple. While they were building it they lived in a smaller 2 bedroom house right next door. Well they're bigger house is finished and now they're renting out the smaller one. We were supposed to move in this March. Why March you ask. Well right now a soon to be doctor and his wife are living in the house. So everything thing was going well and the plans were starting to play out untill about 2 weeks ago. We found out we might not get to move in this March because the doctor got a little frisky and got his wife pregnant! SO NOW THEY MIGHT NOT MOVE OUT! What the crap!! Honestly? So now I don't know if I will be able to move out and will be stuck in my freedomless house forever.
So as you can see kids ruin everything! GAH gaygaygay
Lots of Exciting Stuff
Sorry that I have not blogged in a while. Not much has happened so I thought I'd wait a good couple of days so I could gather enough useful events to blog. Plus it made you anticipate for this post and really want it. So now you'll pay extra attention to my blog instead of just glancing over it. You think I don't know about your glazing over technique..but alas I do.
So the other day I was at work, not a big suprise..i spend about 95% of my time at work. Anyways, I have come to have a very love hate relationship with my job. You see I am a people pleaser. I like to make people happy. It makes me happy. Well I've come to realize that my people pleaser skills get the better of me in the restaurant bizz. Throughout my 6 hour shift I periodically have unhappy people come up to me and complain about various things: "Why don't you have dollar slots in your casino?" "Why can't we sit in the front of the buffet?" "We need a booth..no nevermind we want a table!" "My husband has to sit up front so he can watch the people walk by." These comments get very annoying but I put a nice fake smile on and give these complainers whatever they want. I also get other complaints from my greedy co-workers known as THE SERVERS. "Why aren't you seating me more?" "Why isn't there a gratuity on this reciept?" "Your seating me too much I can't clean my tables fast enough!" These people's complaints i deal with a little differently. I tend to either flip out or pretend like i didn't even hear the complaint and then I walk away. Now you don't have to tell me that this isn't very nice and it even goes against my people pleaser attribute, however I tend to get a lot of pent up anger from the guests, so when a coworker complains to me I flip out. I'm not allowed to tell a server to stop complaining, but you better believe I'll tell a coworker so stop. So 2 nights ago I was at work and I wasn't having a very good day becuase of course everyone was complaining about something. The most common complaint I was getting from both guests and servers was about gratuity. You see, at the buffet we charge an 18% gratuity if you have more than 7 people in your party. This is actually a very cheap gratuity. Every restaurant in Las Vegas charges a gratuity in the same circumstances, however most places charge 20%, so we're really giving you a good deal. Well, guests like to refuse to pay it and then servers like to yell at you for making them do all this work for no tip. Its a vicious cycle. So being very against all the yelling I asked the manager to please explain our policy to the guests so they would pay it. Things were going very well. Then we had a party of 11 come in. They payed the gratuity and sat down to wait for us to push a few tables together. After sitting for about 2 minutes they realized they were charged $30 in gratuity and decided they wanted a refund. In order to do this they had to split up into a group of 5 and a group of 6. By taking their gratuity off they give us the right to seat them in seperate tables instead of pushing them together. I made a comment referring to this and one of the ladies in the group heard me. She ran up to where I was standing got right in my face and started screaming at me. (NOTE: my manager was standing shoulder to shoulder with me when this happened) She started calling me EVIL. I explained to her our policy but she comtinued to yell. My manager stood next to me and watched my face turn red while this woman ridiculed me and said nothing. She then got her friends and I had 3 people now yelling at me. She then pulled out "Your an EVIL B*TCH!" My heart sank. My manager finally (sorta) stepped in and called security. Let's just say I ended up crying in the back. NICE RIGHT! So that is the hate part of my love hate relationship with my job. The love part is I get paid $10 an hour to deal with everyone's crap. Let's just say its not worth it. So I'm now in the market for a new job. If you hear about anything please please please let me know.
So in other knews it is now December. MY FAVORITE MONTH!. This year is exceptionally special. Of course I have Christmas to look forward to. But 2 days following the best holiday ever is my birthday. But not just any birthday my friends..MY 18TH BIRTHDAY! Yes that's right. Finally I will be 18. I can now buy hermit crabs, cigarettes, go to the bowling alley after 6, and have sex with anyone. JUST KIDDING! But I am excited. Then 3 days after that magic Lindsey comes home. Linds has been gone for 6 months now. It has actually gone by a lot faster than I thought it would! So that's exciting stuff.
Also in the December slot: I have taken on the priviledge of decorating my house for Christmas. Usually all we do is throw up a tree, but because I'm in chagre this year we're going to go all out! I can't wait! The only problem is I have to wait a couple of days before I can start becuase I have to go buy decorations and for the moment I am poor. I originally planned on getting all my decorating done on Monday and I'm very sad I have to wait becuase December is slowly slipping away. But we keep everything up till February anyways so I figure 4 extra days won't kill us.
I'm also going to finish my Christmas shopping this Friday. I had gotten a head start on it 2 weeks ago but didn't get as much as I wanted. But for sure on Friday I'll be done.
By the way, in case you didn't catch all my upcoming plans for Friday, I have that day off work. YAY! One of the other hostesses wanted more hours and I wanted less hours and more time away from the complaints. So she took my Friday shift! YAY. So I have today tomorrow and Friday off. Tonight I'm going to go see Bizzle (Shelby), tomorrow I'm gonna hang out with her again. We're gonna wait at her sisters house for a sofa apparently. Fun stuff. And then Friday I don't have plans other than my Christmas stuff.
Speaking of Christmas. Lately I've been talking to a new guy. Hey maybe I'll finally get out of my boy slump. Who really knows tho. Anyways, we talk a lot oabout movies and music. So there's a song called "Christmas Shoes." If you have not heard it I strongly suggest you go look it up. Anyways we were talking about what an amazing song it is and he mentioned it was also a movie. I have been extremely deprived, but hopefully we can get together and watch it. If its half as good as the song I'll probly cry, A LOT!
K this is the last thing I'm going to blog about and it kind of distrubing, but I feel I must. So all girls know that one of the very horrible things about female life is unwanted body hair and getting rid of it. One of my most despised is my bikini line. It's horrible. So for a long time I've been trying to figure out a more long term removal than just shaving. So I decided I would try waxing. Not only that..but do-it-yourself-waxing. HMM...you'd think I would be smarter about this but hence the blog I was not. Now you might be asking yourself "Why on earth is she even concerned about this in WINTER?" Well I figured I would do it in the winter just for a test run. That way if it turns out horribly I wouldn't have to hide. So I heated my wax and applied. Luckily the only smart thing I did in this process was ONLY APPLY THE WAX THE ONE SIDE. Let me just tell you I have never experienced pain like I did today. Not only that, but I didn't get all the wax off so now everything is sticking to me. OUCH! Here's my word of advice. DON"T EVER WAX ANYTHING BUT YOUR EYEBROWS. I honestly think that even if I had had this done professionally I still would be in a world of pain. Sorry if that horribly disgusted you, but i felt the need to share so you would not make the same mistake.
Ok, hopefully this blog makes up for my lack of blogging the past couple of days.
So the other day I was at work, not a big suprise..i spend about 95% of my time at work. Anyways, I have come to have a very love hate relationship with my job. You see I am a people pleaser. I like to make people happy. It makes me happy. Well I've come to realize that my people pleaser skills get the better of me in the restaurant bizz. Throughout my 6 hour shift I periodically have unhappy people come up to me and complain about various things: "Why don't you have dollar slots in your casino?" "Why can't we sit in the front of the buffet?" "We need a booth..no nevermind we want a table!" "My husband has to sit up front so he can watch the people walk by." These comments get very annoying but I put a nice fake smile on and give these complainers whatever they want. I also get other complaints from my greedy co-workers known as THE SERVERS. "Why aren't you seating me more?" "Why isn't there a gratuity on this reciept?" "Your seating me too much I can't clean my tables fast enough!" These people's complaints i deal with a little differently. I tend to either flip out or pretend like i didn't even hear the complaint and then I walk away. Now you don't have to tell me that this isn't very nice and it even goes against my people pleaser attribute, however I tend to get a lot of pent up anger from the guests, so when a coworker complains to me I flip out. I'm not allowed to tell a server to stop complaining, but you better believe I'll tell a coworker so stop. So 2 nights ago I was at work and I wasn't having a very good day becuase of course everyone was complaining about something. The most common complaint I was getting from both guests and servers was about gratuity. You see, at the buffet we charge an 18% gratuity if you have more than 7 people in your party. This is actually a very cheap gratuity. Every restaurant in Las Vegas charges a gratuity in the same circumstances, however most places charge 20%, so we're really giving you a good deal. Well, guests like to refuse to pay it and then servers like to yell at you for making them do all this work for no tip. Its a vicious cycle. So being very against all the yelling I asked the manager to please explain our policy to the guests so they would pay it. Things were going very well. Then we had a party of 11 come in. They payed the gratuity and sat down to wait for us to push a few tables together. After sitting for about 2 minutes they realized they were charged $30 in gratuity and decided they wanted a refund. In order to do this they had to split up into a group of 5 and a group of 6. By taking their gratuity off they give us the right to seat them in seperate tables instead of pushing them together. I made a comment referring to this and one of the ladies in the group heard me. She ran up to where I was standing got right in my face and started screaming at me. (NOTE: my manager was standing shoulder to shoulder with me when this happened) She started calling me EVIL. I explained to her our policy but she comtinued to yell. My manager stood next to me and watched my face turn red while this woman ridiculed me and said nothing. She then got her friends and I had 3 people now yelling at me. She then pulled out "Your an EVIL B*TCH!" My heart sank. My manager finally (sorta) stepped in and called security. Let's just say I ended up crying in the back. NICE RIGHT! So that is the hate part of my love hate relationship with my job. The love part is I get paid $10 an hour to deal with everyone's crap. Let's just say its not worth it. So I'm now in the market for a new job. If you hear about anything please please please let me know.
So in other knews it is now December. MY FAVORITE MONTH!. This year is exceptionally special. Of course I have Christmas to look forward to. But 2 days following the best holiday ever is my birthday. But not just any birthday my friends..MY 18TH BIRTHDAY! Yes that's right. Finally I will be 18. I can now buy hermit crabs, cigarettes, go to the bowling alley after 6, and have sex with anyone. JUST KIDDING! But I am excited. Then 3 days after that magic Lindsey comes home. Linds has been gone for 6 months now. It has actually gone by a lot faster than I thought it would! So that's exciting stuff.
Also in the December slot: I have taken on the priviledge of decorating my house for Christmas. Usually all we do is throw up a tree, but because I'm in chagre this year we're going to go all out! I can't wait! The only problem is I have to wait a couple of days before I can start becuase I have to go buy decorations and for the moment I am poor. I originally planned on getting all my decorating done on Monday and I'm very sad I have to wait becuase December is slowly slipping away. But we keep everything up till February anyways so I figure 4 extra days won't kill us.
I'm also going to finish my Christmas shopping this Friday. I had gotten a head start on it 2 weeks ago but didn't get as much as I wanted. But for sure on Friday I'll be done.
By the way, in case you didn't catch all my upcoming plans for Friday, I have that day off work. YAY! One of the other hostesses wanted more hours and I wanted less hours and more time away from the complaints. So she took my Friday shift! YAY. So I have today tomorrow and Friday off. Tonight I'm going to go see Bizzle (Shelby), tomorrow I'm gonna hang out with her again. We're gonna wait at her sisters house for a sofa apparently. Fun stuff. And then Friday I don't have plans other than my Christmas stuff.
Speaking of Christmas. Lately I've been talking to a new guy. Hey maybe I'll finally get out of my boy slump. Who really knows tho. Anyways, we talk a lot oabout movies and music. So there's a song called "Christmas Shoes." If you have not heard it I strongly suggest you go look it up. Anyways we were talking about what an amazing song it is and he mentioned it was also a movie. I have been extremely deprived, but hopefully we can get together and watch it. If its half as good as the song I'll probly cry, A LOT!
K this is the last thing I'm going to blog about and it kind of distrubing, but I feel I must. So all girls know that one of the very horrible things about female life is unwanted body hair and getting rid of it. One of my most despised is my bikini line. It's horrible. So for a long time I've been trying to figure out a more long term removal than just shaving. So I decided I would try waxing. Not only that..but do-it-yourself-waxing. HMM...you'd think I would be smarter about this but hence the blog I was not. Now you might be asking yourself "Why on earth is she even concerned about this in WINTER?" Well I figured I would do it in the winter just for a test run. That way if it turns out horribly I wouldn't have to hide. So I heated my wax and applied. Luckily the only smart thing I did in this process was ONLY APPLY THE WAX THE ONE SIDE. Let me just tell you I have never experienced pain like I did today. Not only that, but I didn't get all the wax off so now everything is sticking to me. OUCH! Here's my word of advice. DON"T EVER WAX ANYTHING BUT YOUR EYEBROWS. I honestly think that even if I had had this done professionally I still would be in a world of pain. Sorry if that horribly disgusted you, but i felt the need to share so you would not make the same mistake.
Ok, hopefully this blog makes up for my lack of blogging the past couple of days.
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