Some Good Advice

The other day I was whining to Linds about some boy drama (pretty much the norm for me) and she reminded me of some things that I forgot for that brief moment. She basically told me to put a smile on my face because even though that one thing didn't work out for me the way I wanted it to I still had lots to be happy about it.

Today I was whining (once again) about having to be at work. Shelby gave me some advice that seemed a little odd. She told me to compliment 40 people and let her know how my night went when I was off work. Ok I didn't actually complitment 40 people. I actually didn't even keep count, but it did make a difference. Even though customers and coworkers were screaming and yelling I found that turning things around and positively speaking with someone who was upset their attitude was changed. I felt better and they felt better.

I also realized 3 things tonight. The first thing I realized was how important it is to lead by example. By now all of my coworkers are aware that I am mormon. They don't judge and they have gotten to know and understand me as a person. But I haven't been doing my part. I have a slight tendencacy to act like a sponge almost. I soak up the people and the environment I'm in and then I spit that back out. But I realized tonight that that's not why I'm here. If I truly beleive in my church and want to spread that word I should be acting as an example to my coworkers. Even if they don't join the church they would see my example and have a good wholesome opinion about LDS members. So I made a goal earlier today that I would try to be more Christ-like and carry the Spirit with me for others to see instead of stooping to a level I don't want to be at.

The second thing I realized was that I have amazing friends. I understand that I can be whiny when things don't exactly go my way and I get that I vent about ridiculous things that really no one cares about. But I have friends who love me through thick and thin. They advise me, keep my standards high, love me, and they're always there when I need them. Today I went to Junior's farewell and as I sat surrounded by people I love and care about I realized that I am truly blessed for finding such an amazing group of friends.

My last realization is pretty simple and a little silly. DON'T BURN SALT CITY CANDLES DIRECTLY UNDER THE SMOKE ALARM. I tend to be a night owl and I was cleaning my room tonight while the rest of my family was asleep. Suddenly out of no where this loud annoying sound went off. When I looked up at the candle I realized the flame was HUMONGOUS! I quickly blew it out (which was stupid for so many reasons). My whole family woke up in a panic thinking our house was burning down. And now even though they've gone back to sleep I feel incredibly stupid and I can't go sneak out in my kitchen for some sherbet. So sad.

Twilight

Right this second..I mean like RIGHT NOW..I am watching the Twilight trailor for like the 4th time inthe past 40 minutes. Really..I'm timing it. I am so excited for this movie and at the same time I'm not excited at all. I feel like this movie is going to seriously disappoint me. There's no way that all the awesome powers the vampires have are going to be portrayed as well as they were described in the book. I mean that's just obvious. But hopefully it's good. Actually I'm completely comvinced that if the movie is even just half as good as the book then I'll be satisfied. The books are amazing enough that I can give the movie that much wiggle room.

On another note. I can't wait to start shopping for my house. I will be moving in in about 4 months and I'm so excited to get to decorate. So I think when my roommate/besite: Linds get's in town we will start shopping. Because let's face it..if we wait till we move in to buy all our stuff we'll never be able to afford anything. Then our sad little house will be empty. :( Sad

Ok one last thing before I go..I am watching TV and this twix commercial came on.. Ya know those ones where the guy says something stupid and he's gonna take a moment to chew it over with twix. K well i was watching the one where the guy's at a party and he's trying to pick up this girl and he asks her to come back to his apartment and she freaks out. So he takes his "moment" and then he says something along the lines of..I thought you were a believer..someone who would want to blog about their ideals. K and the girl freaks out and is like "OMG I LOVE BLOGGING!" K that commercial is totally escence of Shelby! She's so funny but that girl is a blogger like no other! Hahaha Love you Bizzle!

excuse me!

KaziM1337 (1:47:01 AM): you forget we live in vegas though
KaziM1337 (1:47:14 AM): i mean ur beautiful
KaziM1337 (1:47:27 AM): use your look to your advantage
KaziM1337 (1:47:32 AM): looks*
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:47:37 AM): and how should i do that
KaziM1337 (1:47:46 AM): do what im about to do
KaziM1337 (1:48:02 AM): be an escourt or something
KaziM1337 (1:48:05 AM): model
KaziM1337 (1:48:11 AM): strip
KaziM1337 (1:48:14 AM): cocktail
KaziM1337 (1:48:18 AM): bartend
KaziM1337 (1:48:27 AM): easy and fun money
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:48:29 AM): wow
KaziM1337 (1:48:40 AM): i park cars
KaziM1337 (1:48:52 AM): and make more then 67% of collage grads
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:50:49 AM): well thats awesome..however im not willing to compromise my faith just for money..its not worth it..now or anywhere in my future. there are more important things in the world than money. people tell me everyday i should do those things and i would be very successful at them. but its stupid and a complete waste of time
KaziM1337 (1:51:11 AM): faith?
KaziM1337 (1:51:18 AM): hows does that have to do with anything
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:52:01 AM): wearing hardly any clothes and running around trying to make a quick buck is ridiculous
KaziM1337 (1:52:26 AM): but it doesn't have to do with faith
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:52:34 AM): oh really..how
KaziM1337 (1:52:49 AM): how doesn't it
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:54:45 AM): the faith that i have teaches me to stay out of situations that are bad for me...like surrounding myself with drugs, alcohol, and drunks..it teaches me to respect myself enough not to be half naked...i don't need to show off my body to make money..and can find other ways to pay my bills
KaziM1337 (1:55:19 AM): call me
KaziM1337 (1:55:25 AM): imma watch tv
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:55:25 AM): no
HoPeLeSsbLoNdE (1:55:30 AM): im going to bed



This is an actual comversation I just had with someone who is a complete idiot. I don't care who you are, what you believe, or how you live you life, but don't you dare tell me how to live mine. Don't try to justify to me that sleeping with people, wearing practically no clothes, pole dancing for dollar bills, and surrounding yourself with beer and cigarettes is the right way to earn money. I don't care if I'm dirt poor and close to living on the street I would never for any amount of money subject myself to lowering my standards just to get by. Because in the long run you can't take you money with you when you die. And that money that you degraded yourself to earn is going to be worthless. No thanks idiot. I'll earn my money the dignified way and in the end when no one wants to pay to sleep with you anymore because your just a dirty whore I'll be the one with the true happiness. I'm glad that your happy with your car, house, and "fancy" job, but listen here..I've got all that and the happiness and fufilment from life that your money can't buy you! So stick that in your juice box and suck it.

I Miss You

So about 5 months ago my bestie: Lindsey Jackson moved away for a very very very long vacation. The whole situation was very dramatic actually. About a week after graduation, in our purple bestie shirts, Linds and I boarded a plane headed to the east coast for a 2 week vacation known as THE CHURCH HISTORY TOUR! It was awesome and a good non stop fun time right before she left. On the plane home I started bawling realizing that this was going to be the second to last time I was going to get to see my best friend for the next 6 months. The last time would take place 2 days later right before she got on her plane. I miss my bestie a lot. She's been with me through a lot. And oddly we've only been in one fight that lasted for about 5 minutes. I tell her everything, but it's been hard not being able to text her the minute something excited happens. Luckily we live in a world that allows for e-mailing. :) Otherwise I don't know if I'd be able to make it. I can't wait for her to home. Only 48 more days and she'll be here again. I love you Bestie! B.L.U.B.

Holy Eff Word!

Tonight was amazing. That's all I have to say. I'm nervous as all heck and I'm gonna try to be smart about this, but after waiting so long I might not be able to. But for now I'm completely enjoying myself.

Wanna find out what happened tonight?

Text me and find out! :)

Epic Adventures

So today was a good day. What did I say. I knew today was going to be good. So I got up and I got ready for my day. My hair looked so long..I'M SO EXCITED! Finally it's starting to look long! YAY. So then I went to the dentist. It went well. I just got a cleaning. But the lady put floride on my teeth. She said I was allowed to eat and drink but I couldn't eat. Well this floride stuff made it feel like I hadn't brushed my teeth in a year. So I felt nasty, but I went to the mall anyways cuz I needed to do some shopping. It worked out pretty well cuz I didn't have to talk to anyone since I was there by myself. But then..seriously 2 seconds after I told my mom I was leaving I walked into my ex. Now we're on good terms and all and I don't mind hanging out with him..however, seeing him when I least expect it tends to make me a nervous wreck. Plus HELLO its an ex..you always wanna look freaken amazing and confident and perfect when you see an ex. And here I am looking so cute except I can't open my mouth at all. So I quickly dismissed myself and walked away. But on my way out I decided to stop at one more store. When I walked out of the store I was on the ground level. My car was parked on the other end of the mall on the top level. I debated with myself and finally picked the best route that would lead me to my car without seeing my ex again. But alas my best judgement failed and I ran into him again. I ran away even faster than the first time but he texted me asking why I couldn't stop to talk. So that wasn't to fun. But whatever. So after I left the awkward situation I came home to change and then I went to go get Shelby so we could go to the TEMPLE! YAY! So we made out 30 mile drive..jammin out the whole way..and we finally got to the temple. But when we pulled up the gates were closed! GASP! We forgot it's Monday and they close early for FHE. So we parked the car and walked around the outside. It was still really pretty. The moon had a rainbow around it and was lighting the street so it wasn't so pitch black. Between that and the temple lights it was so pretty. Then we went and say my future house. I'm so excited to move out and experience some independence. The way I look at it this is the only time in my life I will get to experience true reckless independence. I won't have parents or a husband to consider everytime I leave my house. All I have to think about is myself, what I want, and what I feel is right. Then we went to In-n-out and I ate like a friggen fatty..but hey it was the only thing I had to eat all day. It was so good. Then we headed off to Michael's to me "Team Edward" shirts. But we decided against that. In fact we decided against everything in Michael's and headed to walmart instead. There we found a 10 minute dance workout DVD and a yoga DVD. We did both and Shelby and I could not stop laughing. Oh My Word is was so funny. After that the night pretty much died. We watched a movie and both of us practically fell asleep. So I came home and now I'm blogging. And that's my night in a nutshell! Awesome right?!? Ya I know. My life is exciting. Bahaha

Some New Stuff

So tomorrow is going to be a busy day..and I have a feeling its going to be an amazing day. But I won't talk about that now..that way I'll have something to talk about tomorrow. But tonight I did quite a bit. I went to church. It was one of those days where I just didn't really want to be there. I know I'm a horrible person lol. But everyone has those days so there. And I did go so that's gotta count for something. But then I had to go to a meeting for work. I called it a meeting becuase it was mandatory and I didn't want to go, but work called it a "pep rally". So basically I got there and they shoved everyone with the last name H-O in our showroom. It's called ACCESS by the way. Check it out on 11/11 at 11:11 pm. Anyways so we were all in this space that was not meant for that many people and they had the bass turned up so high I could feel the tip of my nose vibrating. Weird right..ya I know. So finally the meeting started and no one was enthusiastic. We all just wanted to go home. But we were being payed to stand there and pretend to be interested so we all clapped because that was the least we could do. But we got to see some interesting stuff. We did a fashion show of all the uniforms from our casino. Let me tell you..the security guards look legit. They are dressed in all balck suits. Holy eff. Not only do they look totally legit but they are smokin hot! HAWT! Omg one of them is so incredibly cute i could die. It's insane. Ok so then i got done with my pep rally and i didn't really do much. I ate dinner..I ATE SALAD FOR DINNER. Ya I know..hopefully my fat goes away. I found a pilates DVD in my room too. WOO HOO! And I printed new pictures for all the frames in my room. They're so cute. But while I was doing that I came up with a couple of goals for the next few months.

GOAL #1
I am making a goal to take more pictures. This may seem silly, but I have a weird camera phobia. I love love love taking pictures and having new pictures. However, I always feel weird taking pictures. I feel like if I pull my camera out someone's gonna say, "Who's the weirdo with the camera?" Or I feel like if I ask someone to take pictures with me they're gonna say NO! OMG that would be tragic.

GOAL #2
Expand my fashion. I plan on doing this a couple of different ways. One way I'm going to do that is by buying a pair of really cute boots. I've been looking for a good pair of boots since last winter and I have yet to find them. This year I'm going to find them! Also I want to find a really cute jacket. I have a habit of wearing sweatshirts everywhere. Which is fine..but I invest in really cute shirts and then they get covered up by sweatshirts. So thats just dumb. I need a cute jacket so that I can be warm and fashionable. K and my last thing is low lights. I was reading an article a couple months ago and I read that if you put low lights in your hair on the middle layer of hair (like not the top but not the very botton aka the middle) it makes your hair looks fuller and longer. BINGO! Exactly what I want.

GOAL #3
Finish Christmas shopping early. I'm starting tomorrow so this should be an easy goal to accomplish. The reason for this semi-ridiculous goal is every year I spend a ton of money on myself. Then when it's about 2 weeks before Christmas I pinch every last penny to get the bare minimum for my family and friends. Well this year instead of being totally selfish I have decided to spend that money on my family. I'm also making a ton of extra money right now because my new job is getting ready to open so I've been working extra hours that I won't be working in December.

So there you have it. I have gotten in the habit of writing very long posts. So I am very sorry if I am boring you with my life.