My Epiphany

So the blog that I posted last night was written while i was hanging out with some lovely people at Mitch's house. At 11:40 p.m. I said my goodbyes and scurried out the door to meet my curfew. About 30 seconds into my drive I realized something. I was rethinking my post and trying to figure out why I'm so dang impatient. And then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I've always known why I'm so impatient to find my perfect someone, but I've never been able to actually put it into words. The reason I am so impatient is because I know deep down in my heart, soul, and every fiber of my being that something great is in store for me. A love so deep and fufilling is waiting for me. My soul mate: the person I will spend all of time and eternity with, is out there just waiting to complete me. That is why I'm so impatient. Because I know the inevitable and I can't wait. But I will wait. And I will experience all the things life has to offer me while he is out there doing the same. I will do it untill there is nothing left to experience by myself and then he will be sent to me. Oh the excitement kills me.

the heart always wants what it can't have

yes im still having my little boy slump. ya know the one where every where you look people seem to be falling in love yet your the only one sitting by yourself on a park bench. Even the dogs seem to be finding love when your in a slump like this. And you try to be happy for the people around you..and you are..you truly are..but deep deep down you can't help feeling a little jealous or maybe envious of them. You just want what they have. You want to be able to hold on to someone even in the worst of times. Anyone who really knows me knows that i go through these boy slumps about half way between my last boyfriend and finding a new one. I don't know why it just happens. Its the point I reach right after I've gotten past my i'm single and independent and boy crazy phase and i launch into my this effing sucks i need to light a fire under my butt and find a guy phase. So I'm there. It's a weird feeling. Bi-polar almost. One moment i can be completely fine and the next my whole mood changes and I'm wanting something i don't have this second. It scares me being in the slump. This is when i tend to do things i end up regretting. When i was inactive this was my RANDOM HOOKUP phase. Any guy that i could find that was willing to make out right then and there was my target. I'm in a new phase of my life and i realize that that's not the smartest move and it doesn't make me feel any better about my situation. I'm still being pretty picky too. It's like i know what i want and i don't settle for anything but that. This may seem normal..but really its a little ridiculous. Because i picture in my head what i think the perfect guy is..and untill i find that perfect picture i don't settle. But most of the time the person im picturing in my head doesn't even exist. And not only that but i don't know who is my perfect match..only HF knows that. So i could very well be turning away the person that is my perfect match all cuz im an idiot. I have many many problems when it comes to this slump. I have another problem called relapse. This is where i find a person that i have already had something with..whether is be an ex boyfriend or ex fling or someone i hooked up with once some time ago. This presents a serious problem because obviously if all these people are in my past they are there for a reason and that reason is not so i can dig them back up again. So as you can see this who slump thing doesn't normally work out for me too well. Therefore I have decided to take a new route to escaping my slump. TRUST trust Trust tRuSt Yes I am equipped with something very special this time around. I have Heavenly Father. And he has a plan. And the only thing i have to do is trust in Him and his path that he has set out for me. So for now I'm in a slump..but its ok..because i will be led out of it on the path that was choosen for me. THE PERFECT PATH. So untill that path leads me to the person i need/want ill keep you updated. Alma 37:36-37

FUN STUFF!

So today was pretty boring, but then it got fun :) I got up and had to go to the dentist. NO CAVITIES! WHOOP! Go me..and they're gonna try to fix me jaw so it won't do that poppy snappy fall out of place thingy. YAY. So then I went to see Shelby at work. Ya know I tried to keep her company and such since its pretty boring down there. I came home and chatted with my mom and then everyone in my house fell asleep while I made dinner. I made Chicken Marsala. My mom really liked it but I thought it was kind of gross. It was too sweet. I like more of a garlic taste to things like that. Ok well enough talking about food. HAHA ya I knew you wouldn't fall for that. It's me we're talkin about..I have to talk about food. So after dinner I went over to Shelby's sis's house. It's so cute by the way. I mean they just painted so it didn't have much furniture..but I was still cute. We went to make a birthday cake for her nephew's 1st birthday. We decided to make a soccer field cake. It was tons of fun. And it turned out pretty well for an ammature cake creation. CHECK IT OUT!

Jordan looking up the creamcheese frosting recipe..YUM!

Shelby waiting for the cake to finish baking.

Carter! He's so cute! Those oven mits scared hin tho.Jordan drawing on the lines for the soccer field. She free handed those suckers and they looked awesome.

Shelby putting our upside down cupcakes soccer balls on the cake.I didn't get a picture of the finished product but this is pretty close. Looks pretty good for a one year old!

Fresh & Easy

Oh man so it's only half way through my day and I've already had enough laughs to last me the rest of the week. This morning I got up and Shelby and I went to the buffet. I honestly thought Shelby was gonna have a heart attack. Shelby+Free unlimited food and drinks=FUN. That buffet finally met its match when we walked in the doors. Altho Shelby definately had a little more fuin than I did. Look at what she did to the desert station.

That is Shelby's dinner plate full of dessert. Oh my. Ok so after we dominated the buffet we drove down to my g'mas. On the way there this SUV full of guys kept staring at us. So Shelby decided to blow them kisses and jazz and I swear they tried to turn around and follow us, but they couldn't. Sad. Haha. K so my g'ma kinda lives in the ghetto so the whole way there Shelby is like pointing out these people and talking in her ghetto fab voice...so funny. So we finally get to the house and we walk in the door and my g'pa says "Oh is this your boyfriend?" Bahahaha. OMG I laughed so hard. On the way home we talked in our ghetto fab voices. It was hilarious. When we got to the fresh & easy Shelby says "That's what you are Alix, Fresh AND easy!" Har Har very funny lol. But really it way funny. The last thing we did was sang country songs in our hick accents. Country is amazing by the way. If you disagree your an idiot. Anyways I have work soon. WHOOP!

America's Next Top WHAT?!?

Ok so I think I've officially lost it. My mom and I are like addicted to America's Next Top Model and she tells me all the time that I should audition for that show. I think she's ridiculous. I mean first of all she's my mom so she has to think I'm pretty and second of all me actually going on that show would be insane. So then the past couple days at work a few people have mentioned it to me. So the subject came up again in my house. My mom really thinks I should do it. My mom modeled when she was my age and she got an offer to go to New York. Not to brag but its a definate posibilty that my mom could've been hecka famous! But she stayed cuz my dad (her boyfriend at the time) didn't want her to go. Even though she is grateful she stayed because she eneded up with me and my brother, a small part of her regrets not persuing her dream. This is why she thinks I should give modeling a shot. So tonight I think I finally lost my mind. I actually GOOGLED IT! I looked up casting calls. I ended up missing them, but now I'm honestly considering going to a casting call. Am I insane? I mean really! You can tell me if I've lost it! It might be kinda funny to end up on that show tho. If you've been nice to me maybe I'll give you a shout out. HAHA just kidding. GAH I don't know what to feel about what I just did. I guess I'll just sleep on it and see how I feel in the morning.

weekends :)

So this weekend was pretty dang eventful. After the whole Halloween adventure a lot of stuff happened. This morning Shelby got me up to early. What is wrong with that girl..waking me up at 10 am sheesh! But it was completely worth it. We "exercised". hahaha. No really we did tho. It was pretty awesome cuz we got to have lots of girls talk. I love talking to Shelby. She's so insightful about things. (BE PLAN A! NOT PLAN B!) Anyways after our workout session we hoped in my motorized vehicle and went to the bank so i could pull out every dime to my name ($30) to go shopping. Yes, I know, I am responsible with my money! So we went to TJ Macks/Max (however you spell it) and i found an awesome skirt for only $7. Awesome right?!?! RIGHT! Then we went to Ross to find shoes. No luck with finding shoes :( but we found a new and improved Michael's next door. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Michael's. Oh my it is my favorite store. If you don't know what to get me for Christmas/Birthday just get me a gift certificate to Michael's and I will love you forever!! Really I will. Anyways while we were there we planned out my birthday partay! Oh geez I'm so excited. It's like 2 months away..but whatever. So then my lovely friend, Shelby, and I were so starving from buring calories we decided to go pig out on wings and pizza, but don't worry we were healthy about it. We had waters with our food ;) Shelby treated..THANKS SHELBY! So then I took her home and the real fun started! My keys got stuck in my ignition! Ya that's right..I said stuck. And my car (which just got a new battery less than a week ago) had to stay on all day! What the crap! But my loving mother fixed it for me :) But while she was doing that I was at work. That was eventful. A cop hit on me, a security guard told me I look 23, and my boss pissed me off. How you ask? Well long story..short version is he won't give me Sundays off. But what really pissed me off is he tried to convince me that God would forgive me. Hmm...yes Heavenly Father is very very forgiving, however I shouldn't have to be forgiven for that. It should just be something I don't do! Obeying the commandments is something I'm pretty sure should be up on your list of priorities right? Right! So he put up a good fight listing of the many reasons he thought were good enough to skip church and work on Sundays. Me reply for him was, "So are you going to be ok with screwing up my eternal salvation?" He had no reply of course. So I won the fight. However I will be looking for new employment now. GAY! I really did like that job. But whatever. There is obviously something better out there that God wants me to find. (That's my thinking anyways) So today was, like I said, eventful. Not necessarily good all the way around..but definately no completely bad either. Altho if it weren't for my amazing morning/afternoon with Shelby my day might have been ruined. But it also rained tonight! I got to run barefoot in it. And I love kissing people in the rain. But since I have no one to kiss right now, I took a mirror outside and kissed myself. Dorky and Lame..I know. But aren't you supposed to learn to love yourself before you can love someone else. I'm getting there, slowly but surely.

FUH BUCKETS aka Just Another Song Lyric

The original name of this blog was called "Just Another Song Lyric" It was very cute and thoughtfully written blog about my amazing night. And then I did what I was supposed to do and hit publish post and and error occured and I lost it. So now I am going to try to recreate the originial blog but it will not be as cute as before so please just bear with me.

So like most music junkies I live my life and play a soundtrack to it in my head on a regular basis. I have a song going in my head just about every second of everyday. Well tonight the song that was playing in my head was "I Miss You" by Blink 182. In the second verse of that song it goes "And we'll have Halloween on Christmas, and in the night we'll wish this never ends, we'll wish this never ends." Well we decided to take this lyric and do it a little backwards and have Christmas on Halloween. Instead of dressing up, trick o treating, and getting sick from eating so much candy, Me Shelby Mitch and Kealian entertained ourselves by rockin out to Christmas music. Well actually Mitch rocked out, Kealian was practically molested, Shelby drew pretty pictures, and I laughed my butt off. It was so much fun. The neighbors probably hated us but we all had a good time. The night ended with a hug fest between me and Shelby..haha..well kinda lol. All in all the night was awesome and a bit out of the ordinary (which is exactly how I love living life)

BTW...we're told to learn something knew everyday. Well I would like to enlighten everyone on what i learned tonight.

Being called a poop stain is much worse than being called a poop. This is because the poop stain is always blamed far worse than the poop. The poop can take place outside, completely away from the house and be drug in by some outside force such as a pet or person. But once that poop comes into the house and becomes a poop stain everyone goes insane and starts yelling and screaming all because of a poop stain. BUT everyone seems to forget that the poop stain wouldn't even be there if it weren't for the poop making a poop stain far worse than a poop. So if you ever get called a poop stain just remember this little tid bit of information. (courtesy of Mitch Hawk)